In this video/audio, I share some of my testimony
as I was learning that
Jesus Christ is living His life from inside me. I
struggled to believe promises that didn't seem to work
consistently for me. My passion was to "know Him,"
His voice, His will, His ways and His plan for me.
Students have
asked, "What is the secret?" I say that in the
past, I asked for what Father God had already promised,
hoping to someday receive it. Now I believe that I
already have all that He has promised and I only
need to learn to release it. In Christ, we already have
everything we need for life and Godliness, we are
complete lacking nothing and we can do all things in
Him. Our problem is that we doubt that we have it all in
Him.
In part two, I share some
journaling and His revelations.
Jesus: Remember to reckon
yourself dead to the flesh, the devil and to legalism.
Every "ought" can become a legalism. I gave you a
calling and commission to cause you to turn to Me
(inside you) because only I can fulfill your destiny
through you. I gave the law as a tutor to teach you
that you can't keep it in your own strength; you must
turn to me.
Carlotta:
Shouldn't we try to fulfill our commission?
Jesus: If you
receive the commission as being addressed to both your
new nature in you and to Me, Christ in you, you will
not fall into performance in your own strength.
With temptation to break My law, it will be similar. If
you wrestle with that temptation as a separate lonely
you, you will fall into fleshly performance or just sin.
If you face temptation as a unified "Christ-in-Me" you
will always succeed in the power of My Spirit. I will
always make a way of escape. 1 Corinthians 10:13
Carlotta: Forgive
me, Lord, for yielding to fleshly fear or anxiety,
pressures and self-protection. I receive your protection
and focus on you, knowing satan is a liar and a bluff. I
gave him power when I focused on his illusions of "what
if this?" or "what if that?"
Jesus: Feelings
come automatically: hurts, fears, lusts,
jealousies, angers, etc.
Emotions are a
feeling plus a belief, i.e.: I have a right to
continue to feel hurt, unforgiveness, fear instead of
faith, anger and sin, jealousy vs. security in Christ.
Flesh is an
automatic reaction of self-preservation, promotion or
self-priorities. It may be a negative initial reaction
or a selfish motivation. Sin is the choice to continue
in that negative/sinful reaction. Carnality is "sin +
time."
Carlotta: "When I am
weak, then I am strong." Not I am made strong, or become
stronger or seek for strength. In You, I am strong.
Jesus: Weak
human, sinful or negative reactions are an
opportunity to exercise faith in your oneness with Me.
You walk out of the temptation in your own strength into
a demonstration of My strength and My heart, love,
compassion, Kingdom priorities and My power.
Carlotta: We are
created with fleshly human tendencies so that we are on
a stage set for making choices. We are either a
demonstration of choosing to live in weakness or
Christ's strength in us.
If at first, we start to react out of separated
thinking: inferiority, insecurity, doubt, fear,
anxiety, anger, jealousy, rejection etc. that is only
the starter. What makes the difference between sin and
spirit-filled strength is how we choose to continue.
Will we choose doubts and fear or faith?
Will I choose to choose to live out of my personal
spirit who is one with His Spirit? Will I react out of
separated thinking? Will I believe I am incomplete? Or
will I rest in Him who is my all in all -- knowing I am
more than complete in Him? Can I do all things
through Him?
Blessed be the God and
Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with
every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in
Christ,
Eph 1:3 NKJV
The Second Work of Grace
Jesus: I will send you
many to counsel who are dying to their own strength.
You will think it is compassion to quickly comfort them,
rescue them or speak resurrection life to them. But, I
would have you just stand by them while they die to
their flesh and rest in the tomb for 3 days. I will
raise them up when they are truly at the end of their
fleshly strength.
Many have a heart to minister but they are not truly
submitted to the Holy Spirit or the authorities I would
place over them. They would even play the Holy Spirit in
the lives of others, trying to force them come to
repentance. They are impatient with others because
actually they have not died to their own supposed
strength.
Carlotta: Yes,
Lord. There is a radical turning point where (by the
grace of God) we come to the end of our stressing and
straining, to the end of our rope. We bring our
perfectionism, our performance, our ability, to the
Cross to be crucified. We no longer force others to see
Truth but we humbly partner with you Lord, as you gently
convict them.
Jesus: Many have
said they were already crucified with Christ, but now
their faith is finally in My supernatural power to
minister through them vs. their ability to do it FOR ME.
I never push My sheep.
Carlotta: Yes, but
You spent years walking us into ADVERSITIES, frustrating
situations, and challenges that were sure to elicit a
fleshly reaction or an absolute surrender to You. We
would beg for grace that You had already given. We would
speak doubts that we have the fruit or gifts vs. speak
faith that we already have it all in You. We seemed to
swing from doubt to arrogance vs. just resting in You to
do it through us.
We were double-minded, seeing life though our own eyes
instead of Your eyes. We would declare Your Truth, wait
a few hours and then speak worry and anxiety. Instead
of seeing life with a "single-eye" believing You
work all things for good, we would call it good if it
looked like You were in control and call it bad if it
looked like the devil was in control. You taught us to
see life with a "single-eye" knowing You are always in
control.
Finally You would allow a crisis of such magnitude that
we have to believe Your Truth, see it with Your eyes,
and release Your power. Praise God! Fiery trials
drive us to Christ in us, our all in all.
You can't kill your flesh;
surrender it to Jesus. Rom. 6:4
Jesus: You were
buried with Me through baptism unto death in order that
you too may have new life.
Most people experience two or more great infillings –
because they were not taught to seek the fullness of the
Holy Spirit at salvation. They are not led to press in
for the full surrender to the power of the Holy Ghost
when they were born again. Salvation was all they knew.
Thus they are saved but left to do exactly what I did
not plan: to try do their best, do it for Me, to live
for Jesus. They flounder, half-drowning in the
rapids of self-effort, wondering why the Christian life
is so difficult. They don't have the other half of
what should have been one single experience.
I, Jesus, the Father and the Holy Spirit are one and we
should all be LORD at once, enabling us to live in full
communion with them. I, Jesus redeem you and
every experience you have had. As you die with Me, you
are raised to newness of life, in the glorious power of
the Holy Spirit. Your fears leave as we walk together in
the Father's perfect love.
Carlotta: What we
need most of all is deliverance, not from demons alone,
but from our own independent self. Our greatest freedom
comes not just as freedom from the law of sin but also
from freedom from our independent "separated
thinking." And we accused You of being far away.
We are commanded to reckon ourselves dead to sin but
most of us commence to focus on sin. We become like what
we focus on -- the law of sin. We are to reckon
ourselves dead to sin because sin will never
be dead to us. Our flesh must still go to the cross
daily, believing You died to enable us to die with You
so we could be raised up in Your life. (Rom. 6)
Show me Lord, when you have someone dying to their flesh
in the tomb for three days. When they come for prayer
counseling they ask for prophetic words, encouragement,
to be raise up, to be comforted, to be enabled to live
the life. I choose to hear You when You say it is time
for them to finally die to their flesh, to let every
talent, gift, ability, knowledge, etc. Still my
tongue when You want me to merely stand by them
while they die and lay in the tomb for 3 days. I can do
nothing but stand aside while the Holy Spirit brings
their "self effort" to death. Then He alone can raise
them up. You alone can make them one in Spirit with
You.
After beginning with the
Spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human
effort? Gal. 3:3
Then He raises us up in
His life
Our part is to believe God
even when there is no sign of the promise being
fulfilled in the natural world. We are not to resort to
natural means to assess it, grade it, or to perform it.
If we see no sign of the promise being fulfilled but we
do not fall back on self-effort to fulfill it.
God's part is to make
Himself, His work and the fulfillment of His promises
real to us. His ways are not our ways. We are to
believe for supernatural intervention. He often
engineers a supernatural intervention, divine
appointment, or divine connection with very little
effort from us. We find that He has placed us into a
hotbed for growth, a team of hungry seekers, a school of
teachers waiting to teach, or a crowd of rebels waiting
for a cause. Then we simply go forward as our
Spirit-filled selves knowing He has chosen us a partners
in ministry.
One with Him - In Him
Having been born again, we
are now partakers of a new divine nature. It is not just
a positional truth (like true in God's eyes but not
evident to anyone else.) We truly have a new identity
(and with it a new mind, will and emotions.) Our spirit
is now quickened and alive with His Spirit! We live
in the spiritual realm, are spiritual creatures, with
new eternal Kingdom values.
We have a new inner
consciousness because we ARE NEW inside. It is fixed on
Christ because He is really living inside us. Before we
were fixed on ourselves; now we are never just "self"
but a union of "Christ - I" inside because He is the
definition of our purpose in life, we are living in a
Christ realm vs. a self realm now.
Our identity has been
redefined as totally acceptable and forgiven, based
on His death and resurrection life coursing through our
veins like veins of hope, vision, and power. We are
beginning to accept the exchanged life; He took our sin
and gave us His righteousness as a gift. We are no
longer slaves to sin and are finally off the performance
for acceptance treadmill.
But after being born
again, we still felt a little separated, like He was
still far away. He purposely allowed situations that
would press us to find our only hope for true success -
in Him.
We don't live hoping to
make Him give us what we need form storehouses, far away
in Heaven. We live out of the well-spring of living
water that He Himself is deep inside us. When He said we
are the light, He didn't mean that we merely reflect His
light shining from far away. We are light because His
blinding light shines through every pore in our body to
those who would see Christ.
Many have sought and
sought the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, the gifts, the
refreshing, the outpouring, the power, their ministry,
without ever finding "oneness" with Him. They continue
to pursue Him never reckoning their oneness as already
so. Jesus prayed one outstanding long prayer (and
continues to pray) that we will be one with Him as He
is with the Father. John 17 Would He intercede
for us in Heaven if it were not possible?
While some are begging
Jesus to be "with them, "to come," "to show up," etc.
others are thanking Him for being their all in all
inside, for completeness "in Him," lacking nothing.
Why beg for gifts, power and fruit when we already have
Jesus, the fullness of the Godhead inside? Let's
just thank Him daily that we are already complete in
Him.
We no longer ask Him to
bless what we can do in our strength "for Him" because
without Him, we can do nothing. We just hear what
the Father says and we (+ Christ in us) say what the
Father says. We see what the Father is doing and we
do what the Father does, in His strength, His power, His
will, His way and His timing!
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